Got caught in a situation
With nothing to write
No stories to dictate
And no feelings inside
This world around evolves
Every pie of a second
Still no words to explain
What to me just happened?
A friend got brand new lappi this week
While the other got a mighty car
Someone got a pair of specs on his face
While other one?s face got a scar
Everyone is having something to say
Something to write about life
But I am confused, sitting calm and diffused
Like a Moon but without moonlight
I wake up everyday
Pledging lots of things to share
About my dreams, about my love
About things rarest of the rare
But for every time I try
My heart close down its gate
Feelings prefer to remain buried inside
Words fall short to express my state
This phase in life can come to you
Anytime without your will
When whole world seems to be chatty around
But only you want everything still
Don?t feel retarded in such a condition
Take a paper and a pen along with
And write down whatever your heart feels about
Similar to what I just did.
Today, I was having a chat with very close friend of mine. A friend with whom I can openly share my feelings, my happiness, my sorrows, my guilt, and almost everything. After having a long chat for hours, we departed with just saying:
I remember when our friendship was in a initial phase, our departing words were just composed of “Bye Gudnite” or at max with “Swtdrmzz”. But as days pass by, we became more frank and concerned about each other’s well being. So “Tkcr” was added in the sequence to increase depth of our emotions showing how much we care for each other.
But then later, when these many words were found incapable of sending warmth and depth of our feelings in text, we started inventing new-new words to increase the length of the greetings, just to let the other one know that I have love and affection for you in my heart but I am lacking in words to express them. May the length of my greeting let you know my concerns for you.
We added “Tataaaaa” and then we added “ShubhRatri”.
Still when we found feelings un-expressed, we tried all possible modifications of these 6 words, sometimes by enlarging the length of the words:
and sometimes by increasing the words or by modifying spellings
Have a dreamy night,
Take care dear,
It was really nice talking to you today, etc.
But even after having these many words with so many variations and forms, many a times I found them unsatisfactory and lacking in emotions.
I don’t know the reason behind this. Why there are loads and loads of words to be used by lovers but not for friends. Why it looks inappropriate or a boy/girl hesitates to use “Love You” or “Miss You” or any such words for a girl/boy who is really close to his/her heart.
Today, I want to make my friend know that how much I love to spend time and share words with her, how close she is to my heart and it’s not my dream-girl only whom I misses always.
Although my love for you and my frequency and extent of missing you will be a bit different from that for my dream-girl, I have to admit this:
I Love you and I want you to be a part of my life hamesha and forever.