You were, You are and You will, Always be a Part of My Life

My life took an unexpected turn today.
A part of mine
That was meant to amend me
Whenever I broke down
A part of mine
That was meant to comfort me
Whenever my pains get unbearable
A part of mine
That I felt would always believe in me
Even when whole world defies my existence
A part of mine
That I thought would never say no
Whenever I need someone to be at my side
That part just left me
With such a short notice
That I didn’t even get time grasp the situation
I wasn’t prepared for something like this to happen
Nor was I aware that the tree
That we flourished with years of trust and love
Was so weak to withstand a single stroke

I never knew
How important it was
To pinch everyone every time
To remind them of their existence in our life
How important it was
To make a list of things that will go wrong
If that someone is found absent for a long time
And send them as daily newsletter to every person
How important it was
To let them know every day
That they mean a lot in our small world
So stop taking tests every time, leaving us heartbroken
How important it was
To ignore our passion our work our desires
Just to make that someone feel special
Else they would find themselves obsolete from our lives

Yes I failed on all these grounds
I never made you feel special
Although you were the first person
With whom I shared all goods and bads of my life
I never poked you every day with a message
Although that day would have no meaning
If you were not there to accompany me

Yes I failed every time you tested me
Yes I gave my work a priority over you
Yes I wasn’t there every time you need me
Yes I wasn’t there to catch your tears every time before they fall
But that doesn’t make me a heartless guy
Nor it means I don’t care for you

No matter how worst things get between us
No matter how wrong my words sound to you
You were, You are and You Will
Always be a part of my life

Part Of My Life
Part Of My Life

Happy New Year 2013

Wishing all my Blog Followers, readers and visitors, and also to everyone out there, a very very happy and prosperous New Year 2013.

Happy New Year 2013
Happy New Year 2013

May this year come with a lot of happiness and memorable moments to all of you and may God fulfill all your dreams and wishes (positive ones only that do not harm others :)).

As a blogger, my New Year resolution would be to make quality content that can entertain you more and more and make you familiar with phases of life I have been through and problems I faced there or the feelings that emerged from my heart.

As a social being, my New Year resolution would be to make this society a better place, not by pointing at others for wrong they did, but by making my own soul pure and free from ill thoughts.

As a student I can’t make any resolutions, as for a student, rules are meant to be broken. And to maintain my own self-respect, I don?t want my rules to be broken by myself. 🙂

As a son, as a brother, as a friend, and for all the relations I hold with my loved ones, my new year resolution would be to keep everyone happy and give them the best I can.

Happy New Year to all of you once again. And call it a co-incidence or something, but 1st day of the year 2013 has fallen on Mangal (Tuesday). Sabka mangal hoga ji. 🙂

 

Overcoming State of Melancholy

Got caught in a situation
With nothing to write
No stories to dictate
And no feelings inside

This world around evolves
Every pie of a second
Still no words to explain
What to me just happened?

A friend got brand new lappi this week
While the other got a mighty car
Someone got a pair of specs on his face
While other one?s face got a scar

Everyone is having something to say
Something to write about life
But I am confused, sitting calm and diffused
Like a Moon but without moonlight

I wake up everyday
Pledging lots of things to share
About my dreams, about my love
About things rarest of the rare

But for every time I try
My heart close down its gate
Feelings prefer to remain buried inside
Words fall short to express my state

This phase in life can come to you
Anytime without your will
When whole world seems to be chatty around
But only you want everything still
Don?t feel retarded in such a condition
Take a paper and a pen along with
And write down whatever your heart feels about
Similar to what I just did.

Sad and Still
Sad and Still

Love You Friend

love you friend1

Today, I was having a chat with very close friend of mine. A friend with whom I can openly share my feelings, my happiness, my sorrows, my guilt, and almost everything. After having a long chat for hours, we departed with just saying:

Bye
Gudnite
Swtdrmzz
Tkcr
Tata
ShubhRatri.

I remember when our friendship was in a initial phase, our departing words were just composed of “Bye Gudnite” or at max with “Swtdrmzz”. But as days pass by, we became more frank and concerned about each other’s well being. So “Tkcr” was added in the sequence to increase depth of our emotions showing how much we care for each other.

But then later, when these many words were found incapable of sending warmth and depth of our feelings in text, we started inventing new-new words to increase the length of the greetings, just to let the other one know that I have love and affection for you in my heart but I am lacking in words to express them. May the length of my greeting let you know my concerns for you.

We added “Tataaaaa” and then we added “ShubhRatri”.

Still when we found feelings un-expressed, we tried all possible modifications of these 6 words, sometimes by enlarging the length of the words:

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,
Swtdrzzzzzzzzzz,
Tataaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, etc.

and sometimes by increasing the words or by modifying spellings

Bye Bye,
Good Night,
Have a dreamy night,
Take care dear,
It was really nice talking to you today, etc.

But even after having these many words with so many variations and forms, many a times I found them unsatisfactory and lacking in emotions.

I don’t know the reason behind this. Why there are loads and loads of words to be used by lovers but not for friends. Why it looks inappropriate or a boy/girl hesitates to use “Love You” or “Miss You” or any such words for a girl/boy who is really close to his/her heart.

Today, I want to make my friend know that how much I love to spend time and share words with her, how close she is to my heart and it’s not my dream-girl only whom I misses always.

Although my love for you and my frequency and extent of missing you will be a bit different from that for my dream-girl, I have to admit this:

I Love you and I want you to be a part of my life hamesha and forever.

love you friend2
Love You Friend

Bravo! 10 Millennia Hits

Hey Hey Hey
Its a 10K hits day
Thanks to all my readers
And a gratitude I must say

Thanks to my followers
For their comments and supports
Thanks to my editors
For giving me error reports

Thanks to all my friends
For their help and motivation
Thanks to all my visitors
For making this beautiful relation

Reaching upto this point
Is like a dream come true
But finally today I made it
And the credit goes to you

Now I just keep my fingers crossed
With a hope to maintain this stature
Will always need you all my friends
For my success and brighter future.

Answer Me God

From the day I was born
Till the day I may live
Am I destined to face the hatred
No matter how best I give ?

Sometimes I just wonder
Why God do all this to me,
Why people give me hatred, not love
Why not my goodness, do they all see ?

Why everyone stands against me
Why only I have problems in life
Why everyone else around is happy
Why its only me who struggles to survive ?

What wrong I did to this world
That made my life so unfortunate
What sin I commited to you my God
That you made my happiness truncate.

Have I ever hurt my parents
Or have I ever cheated close frineds
Have I ever showed disrespect to elders
Or have I showed disbelief in your presence

Answer Me God
Answer Me God

How long and to what end
Will I be the man to suffer
Is there any end of my hard times
Or the days will grow still more tougher.

Only thing I would like to ask
By the end of all these complaints
Am I not your child like all
Or do I deserves to live in pains.

Now my knees have grown, far too weak
And shoulders got bent to ground
Can’t carry any long, this bulk of ill fortunes
Take my life, before I kill my sound.

Dilwa Humaar is Bada Diler

Dilwa humaar is bada diler
Ee aawat hai on every chori
Each kona of dil is bhara hua
Then also, tuhaar liye jagah hai thodi

Kaye se ki, jab se dekha hai tumko
Humka to kuch kuch started hoing
Neend not coming, bhook not laging
Bechaini dil ki is day by day growing.

Sochat hain finally ab maar hi dein propose
Aur tumko is dil ka haal batawein
Baith ke knees pe, saans andar kheench ke
Tuhar dil ko apna feelingswa samjhawein

Chahat hain bitawein whole life tuhar sang
Aur har pal ho tum, in front of my eyes
Bride banaike, marriage rachaike
Le javein kahin tumka, bolke sabko goodbyes
.
.
.
.
Hum think hi rahe the ee sab kuch
Ki tuhar friendwa aa gayi saamne
Dekh ke uu ka, heart dhak dhak hui gava
Felt like doosri dilwa di raam ne

Bas phir kya tha, hum to bhool gaye tumka
And dreamens me humre aavo koi aur
Dilwa humaar to hai hi diler
Ek aur ke liye bhi jagah hogi, for sure

At a ending Note:

RIP English
English Vinglish

 

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A Lustful Mind

A Lustful Mind
Lust

We were roaming around
When i got eyes on you
My nerves failed to identify
But heart said “you aren’t new”

My eyes got stuck
My senses mesmerized
Why from this stunning beauty
God kept me deprived

The aroma of your presence
Bound me in all manners
Got activated, my pervert mode
With both eyes turned to scanners

Face was cute and lips were red
Long hairs were all in rest
But all these were of lil meaning
As i had, other areas of interest

But from tip to toe
The things you show
Wowed my things( 😉 )
With a lustful blow.

Sliding down your shoulders
Got caught between the lumps
But found my way, through the gaps
As eyes struggled to snub the humps

With one hand in pocket
I managed to sustain my tour
Burning down to deeper thoughts
Gazing at your “24”

Feeling the slick of the waist
Skated down your curves and cuts
Tried to control my rising tides
But my mind was getting nuts.

A friend pulled me out of the scene
Else someone there would have died
Somehow controlled my immense feelings
But with both hands inside

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His words were not looking satisfactory to me but I thought of relying on him coz he might have faced all these things as he has a girlfriend already.

When I checked my Facebook account late night, there were so many messages of her saying sorry, begging me to come online, with few crying similes at the end. And then I noticed the time for which she has waited for me to come online. There were messages from 6 p.m. to 10 p.m. almost after every 15 minutes or half an hour. I felt very bad for making her cry and was about to reply her, but Rahul suddenly stopped me from doing so. My hands were running towards the keyboard to type her a message, but I he didn’t let me.
Next morning when I saw her face in the class I found guilt for yesterday’s things on her face, begging me to talk to her. Even I was keen for the same but I ignored her.

I kept behaving like this for next few days with a hope in my heart every day, that she will approach me and will tell me that she likes me. But as days were passing by, conversation between us was reducing exponentially from her side too. Even our lab sessions were without a word between us. As I found that situation is going beyond expectations I discussed this matter with Rahul once again. He told me not to worry and said that she will surely say one day that she likes me if she truly does.

But I was losing my patience and my senses were saying that she is taking it in a wrong way. So without wasting a minute I logged in my facebook account and luckily found her online.

Prateek- Hiii.
Prateek- I lost my timetable today. Will you help me again? J J
Puja- Idiot. Nalayak. Buddhu. Now say it.
/* I knew what she is expecting me to say but was pretending to be innocent. */
Prateek-Say what? J
Puja- Are you saying it or should I leave :@.
Prateek- Hey hey…. Wait. Don’t go. Actually….. actually…….I felt a bit different for you from the very first day.
Puja- Oh. Different like what? Like a sister?

/* Now I need some guts to say what I feel.*/
Prateek- No no no. Not in that way. I mean like a….. I mean you and me…. more than just friends….
Puja- Oh ya. Even I was thinking of that. I need a brother here who can take care of more than a friend. This is what you too desire, being more than just friends with me. Is it Ok with you?
Prateek- You know what I mean, still you are pulling my leg. Ok. Hmmmm…… I Like/Love you.
Puja- Oh my God. Phattu bol pada. Wow I am surprised with this. By the way what does this Like/Love means.
Prateek- Actually its too early to be called love but me feelings are stronger that like. So I was confused. By the way why didn’t you talk to me these many days?
Puja- Hahahahahaha. You got caught in your own trick. I was just ignoring you to get your attention. Your eyes speak more than you do. So I was confident that you will surely approach me one day.
Prateek- Oh god I am such an idiot. I got caught in my own net. Very Clever ha…..
Puja- Oh What clever. Agar mene yeh step nahi uthaya hota to hum aaj bhai behen hi ban gaye hote.
Prateek- Hehehehehe. Might be.

And then we both carried our conversation too long that day. She saw my blushing face next day morning in class saying me M an idiot and I saw her cute smiling face saying her an angel.

This is how my story got started and is still going on. But I learned golden fact from her. If you want someone to be in your life, then go tell him/her. Don’t rely on signals. And do what your heart says, not what others says.
*******************Happy Ending********************

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I thought it would be the best way to escape. I logged out from my account but was willing to log in into her heart.

Throughout the night this thing kept moving in mind that how can I be so idiotic or shameless to a girl with whom I was talking for the first time. May be it was her beauty that mesmerized my mind or it may be her simplicity that affected my words. Whatever be the reason, but it was the first time when I understood the meaning of the words “Love is in air.”<3<3. This may look too early for being like love, but I know this is what a boy feels when he first time feels that kind of attraction with a girl. Same was the case with me. Anyways…. With a thought of having her in my dreams this time too, I went to sleep that night, but she kept me awake for long.

The next morning in the college I tried to escape from her eyes somehow, but when I found that her eyes are looking for me, I gathered some courage and approached her with a foolish smile.

“Thanks for the timetable yaar. Because of you only I came here in time today.”
“Oh. Never mind. You are always welcomed. And one more thing, Thanks and Sorry looks cheap between friends. Better drop it when you are with me.”
Me blushing and felling relaxed after her words “Ahh… You mean… Mera matlab hai ki…. Are we friends? ”
“I think we are or we can. But if you want then you can take time to think over it again.”
“No no. It’s my pleasure to have you as my friend. The only thing that I was worried about is my image that I have made in front of you with my yesterday’s words. I thought you won’t talk to me after that.”

“Hmm….That was too surprising for me too. But I know you are not of that kind. So leave it there and move on.”
“Ya. Actually it’s my first ever attract… sorry interaction with a girl……………… So was a bit confused.”

As soon as I somehow completed my sentence I zipped my lips hard enough to prevent anymore slip of words. But I noticed a hidden smile on her face with that.

“Ok then. Go get your lunch. See you in the lab. Byeeeeeeeeeeee”.
“Bye. See you there. ”

While in my way to mess I remembered few tips of Rahul regarding How to know a girl likes you or not. Since he is a bit experienced in these matters, I keep asking him about these stuffs. So yesterday when I had enquired him about “How to know a girl likes you or not”, his very first words were: “You can never come to know that until the girl herself want you to know.” But still when I insisted to tell at least something or some signs of liking, he told me some of these tips:
-Girls will never let you know that they like you. You have to sense it from their activities and words.

When I enquired what type of activities, he told
-If a girl smiles more than she speaks when she is with you.
-If she uses Hiiiiiiiii/Byeeeeeeeeeeeee/BByeeeee or some other awkward forms other than simple Hi/Bye.

I don’t know about other tips, but my mind got stuck at the last one. Then I went in flashback to confirm what she said to me when she departed. And then just like in TV serials, when someone slaps the other its noise can be heard 10 times, her words were pounding my head “Byeeeeeeeeeee” “Byeeeeeeeeeee” “Byeeeeeeeeeee” “Byeeeeeeeeeee” “Byeeeeeeeeeee”…………………..

Now should I take it as a signal as Rahul suggested, or consider it as a simple Bye clipping ending “eeeeeeeee’s” coz Rahul also suggested me not to hurry with these signals in judging a girl as they are too complicated to be understood. So I thought of giving her a signal from my side instead of waiting for her.

So as I reached to attend Lab, I sat at my place beside her and said “Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii…………..” until I squeezed my whole breathe. She looked at me surprisingly and reacted in a strange way that wasn’t expected. Apart from her, many others who were around started staring at me as if I have snatched their lab equipments for doing experiments. Well I took it as an insult to my self-respect and
didn’t say a word after that and moved to my experiment in hurry. Puja realized that she had reacted in a wrong way and I got hurt with that. So she tried to pull my attention to other things. But I was not in a mood to stay there anymore. So I quickly completed my practical and left the lab.

At hostel that night Rahul came to me and said:
“What were you trying to do in the Lab with your long lasting Hiiii..?”
“Yaar I thought that if her signals are confusing me, I should give her signals from my side that I like her. She must have tried to understand that instead of reacting in a way that made fun of me in front of the whole class.

Rahul laughed at me for some time and then said:
“You are a naive for these things. Damn it. Girls use these signals not boys. If you address a girl with Hiiiiii/Byeeeee  or with a foolish smile on your idiotic face all the time, then they will treat you in some other way but not in the way you wanted.”
“Then you tell me Rahul what should I do? Should I tell her about my feelings rite now or should I wait until her next signal.”
“Look. Boys must not pretend to be sweet and cute if they want to impress a girl. Rather they should be like macho man and must not give that girl much importance otherwise she might take you as a despo guy running to make a girlfriend after being in a college. Ignore her for some time and then see, she herself will approach you.”

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