तुम आयी थी क्या

आज सुबह का मिज़ाज़ कुछ अलग नज़र आ रहा था
कमरे में एक भीनी भीनी खुसबू सी थी
और बिस्तर की सिलवटें कुछ उस ओर भी बिखरी थी

ये कानों को छूती हुई लम्बी सी मुस्कान
साफ़ बयां कर रही थी की
इस खुशनुमा मौसम की ज़रूर कोई खास वजह है

बहुत अच्छे से तो याद नहीं कल रात का
बस हमारी लम्बी बातें चल रही थीं
और तुमसे एक बार मिल पाने की तड़प
तुम्हें बस एक बार छू पाने की चाहत
फोन की स्क्रीन पर लिखे चाँद शब्दों
और कुछ smileys तक सिमट के रह जा रही थी

मुझे ध्यान है मैं तुम्हारी
लाल दुपट्टे में भेजी तस्वीर से
फ़ोन के इस पार आने की गुज़ारिश कर रहा था

और तुम्हारे काले सूट से मैच करती
माथे की छोटी सी बिंदी को
एक बार चूमने की आज़माइश कर रहा था

ढेर सारी बातें थीं जो बोलनी थी तुमसे
जो कहने को चलता तोह बात फिर रूकती नहीं
और लिखने को चलता तोह ये रात निकल जाती

मेरे ख्यालों और हमारी बातों के बीच
कब आँख लगी कुछ ध्यान नहीं
पर याद है की तुम कह रही थी की जल्द मिलूंगी

अच्छा सुनो, तुम आयी थी क्या

Kaise Bayaan Karun

Tujhe dekhkar meri aankhon ko jo sukun milta hai
Main kaise bayaan karun
Tujhe sochkar meri baaton me jo junoon dikhta hai
Main kaise bayaan karun

Kaise bayaan karun, apne pichle kuch mahinon ki tadap ko
Aur kaise bayaan karun, apne dil se hui us din ki jhadap ko
Jab ye tha to mere paas, par dhadka tumhaare liye tha
Jab ye khushi se naacha to tha, par bol aur geet tumhare the

Kaise bayaan karun, main is aalam-e intezaar ko
Aur kaise bayaan karun, tere dar pe lage us darbaar ko
Jahan main tha ik fariyaadi, apna dil dene aaya tha
Charche the jiske husn ke har gali, ik dafa mil lene aaya tha

Ab?dekho ek ye aaj ka din hai
Jab teri khusboo, meri saanson ka ik hissa si lagti hai
Aur doori jo thi darmiyaan, ab koi purana kissa si lagti hai

Kis kadar tere nashe mein main dooba hua hun
Kaise bayaan karun
Tujhe paakar main jo aaj yun poora hua hun
Kaise bayaan karun

 

BTS:

I started writing this before my brother’s marriage. Plan was to make him recite this on stage in front of everyone for Bhabhi. But couldn’t finish it on time and gave him the half cooked(only first two stanzas) thing. More than two months got over and finally I decided to finish it today.

And just for fun, this was the actual ending I came up with earlier 🙂

Tujhe paakar main jo aaj yun poora hua hun
Main kaise bayaan karun
Tujhe saamne roz dekhkar jo phool ke?bhatura hua hun
Main kaise bayaan karun

Overcoming State of Melancholy

Got caught in a situation
With nothing to write
No stories to dictate
And no feelings inside

This world around evolves
Every pie of a second
Still no words to explain
What to me just happened?

A friend got brand new lappi this week
While the other got a mighty car
Someone got a pair of specs on his face
While other one?s face got a scar

Everyone is having something to say
Something to write about life
But I am confused, sitting calm and diffused
Like a Moon but without moonlight

I wake up everyday
Pledging lots of things to share
About my dreams, about my love
About things rarest of the rare

But for every time I try
My heart close down its gate
Feelings prefer to remain buried inside
Words fall short to express my state

This phase in life can come to you
Anytime without your will
When whole world seems to be chatty around
But only you want everything still
Don?t feel retarded in such a condition
Take a paper and a pen along with
And write down whatever your heart feels about
Similar to what I just did.

Sad and Still

Answer Me God

From the day I was born
Till the day I may live
Am I destined to face the hatred
No matter how best I give ?

Sometimes I just wonder
Why God do all this to me,
Why people give me hatred, not love
Why not my goodness, do they all see ?

Why everyone stands against me
Why only I have problems in life
Why everyone else around is happy
Why its only me who struggles to survive ?

What wrong I did to this world
That made my life so unfortunate
What sin I commited to you my God
That you made my happiness truncate.

Have I ever hurt my parents
Or have I ever cheated close frineds
Have I ever showed disrespect to elders
Or have I showed disbelief in your presence

Answer Me God

How long and to what end
Will I be the man to suffer
Is there any end of my hard times
Or the days will grow still more tougher.

Only thing I would like to ask
By the end of all these complaints
Am I not your child like all
Or do I deserves to live in pains.

Now my knees have grown, far too weak
And shoulders got bent to ground
Can’t carry any long, this bulk of ill fortunes
Take my life, before I kill my sound.

My Love For You

My love for you, is naive and pure,
My feelings are true, of that am sure,
The only thing that keeps me away from you,
My mind, my words, this world, this crew.

I may not be staring at you all the time,
I may be ignoring you, when you look at me,
I may seem rude, with my words and speech,
But my heart skips a beat, when you pass by me.

I will be at your side, throughout my life,
I will stay close, whenever you need me,
I will never ask you to change, for what you are,
But the only change I seek, is your last name.

Give me a look, am dying to have it,
May be your step can, make me move a bit,
We will pass this world, we will cross the lines,
We will have a life, leading above the cloud nine.